I was really hurt hearing the news about the verdict for the Trayvon/Zimmerman case. I'm not entirely sure why. I don't really know why I thought the case would have ruled in favor of Trayvon, but a lot of it was purely hope in a bettering society that I live in. Then Gee hits me and tells me that he was found not guilty, and I felt an eruption of tears surfacing in my eye sockets that I stifled while sitting in the car in the middle of LA traffic... because at this point, I don't want to feel upset over an injustice that will linger in the years to come. I try not to get too invested in these trial cases, because the less I'm involved, the less disappointment I'll face when it goes the exact opposite of the way in which justice would have it. That's probably the problem of our judicial system, there is less of an influence on the defendant being "not guilty" than being innocent. In the U.S. we are all given the right to trial on whether or not we are guilty or not, but we start off on the grounds that we are innocent, until proven otherwise. What if our system posed it to where we were tried as guilty, until proven innocent? How many more cases would be ruled justifiably? How would that impact the way in which lawyers fight for their clients when representing the defendant? I just wonder. In France it's that way. I only know this because my French prof in undergrad told me. It's very different in America. I'm not surprised. Being in America, we have a western perspective that our ways our right and just, and that other countries in genocide, with impoverished lifestyles, unfairly treated women, forbidden speech and the like are all countries that need our assistance to reform. Such pompous perspectives, we hold.

Sigh. Not many words can be shared from my heart to really express the way I feel. In a sense, I don't feel too broken, but it still is so disappointing that our judicial system continues to disappoint in these highly publicized cases where the black person ALWAYS loses.

Luckily, I know God is in control, and for that I am thankful.

-Mrs. M.